This may seem premature, but I originally posted this last year on my tumblr, and it has become (almost) relevant again which is handy while I'm doing the blog merge.
Another year has almost passed and we’re entering into the new. In the past, reaching new years was a dreaded experience for me. It brought upon feelings of disappointment and guilt for the year passed, anxiety and fear for the new to begin. The idea of resolutions seemed pointless and frustrating as I couldn't allow myself to move beyond those unresolved the year just gone. When it comes to me and resolutions, I pretty much have a ‘blow it out you’re rear end’ kind of attitude.
It’s the expectations that get me. The impossibly high ones I set for myself. Ugh. Even when you have your self destructive patterns all laid out in front of you, sometimes you just feel defeated by habit. And lets all face it, Christmas and New Years can be pretty emotionally draining holidays, so it’s hard to keep reserves in the tank for silly nonsense such as enthusiasm and optimism!
Strangely enough, last year I was slightly more upbeat about the ‘starting a fresh’ vibe. I made a few specific goals regarding what I want to achieve for the year, such as developing and selling my art work. I also touched on some more wishy washy, vague, personal growth resolutions, namely moving on and letting go. At this time of year, these usually are the the things weighing me down, holding on to all those feelings, angsts, resentments, fears, angers that stop us from moving forward. Not easy. But every year there’s some part of me that decides it’s a least worth trying! So I hope your Christmas and New Year means trying too and that the year coming gets you thinking about some exciting goals and dreams that you can achieve!